Amazing things

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So lama tak update blog. Sekarang ni dah tak kerja, so best duduk rumah looking after my babies. So hard work lah, more work than hospital work lah looking after small children. My kiasu SpR asked me my career plans hence I told him my plan to take a year off to look after my babies. And goodness, such continuous advice he gave to me telling me that I had made the wrong decision etc. I don't think so, different people have different priorities. He maybe aiming high in his career, does not mean I am not. Just that I am also a mother, to two small children. They are not going to remain small. My career can wait, my babies can't. Does not mean I am quitting medicine, this is also part of what I am, a mother. Being a doctor is another part of me.

Yes, maybe I am not as ambitious as my colleagues. My beliefs are different, my priorities too. Thats what makes this world colourful.

It has not been easy previously with both of us working full time with two small children. Many people asked me how I did it. I could not give a straight answer, mainly because I have never thought about it. You just go on with your daily life and work etc, that you don't even have time to think about all this.

So far I can see that Abdullah and Zahra are certainly more happier with me staying home full time. Zahra has been more talkative and smiling and tantrums are now very rare. Abdullah at 15 months appears to be so clever. Only now have I noticed how much Zahra has missed me, and how much I realised I have missed her. Sometimes I cuddle her and kiss her little fingers which had grown so much as I remember them being so tiny before.